Ok, so I am 25 years old and come this October. I am going to be a father. Now I am very excited about this. I really am. But at the same time I am really scared. Now back when I was in high school I took 3 different child care classes. One of them I took twice. So that means I took 2 years worth of child care classes. I have taken parenting and child care twice. Plus I have taken child care management and early child hood development. So I can say that I am well educated on the world that I am about to step into. But I also know that I have a lot to learn and that is what scares me. What if I don't learn those things fact enough. The mother and I have both decided already that we are both going to raise this child. Even if we don't get back together. Which I honestly think we will. We are to close as it is and I feel that this little life that we have created will only bring us closer to each other, I can honestly say that I believe this is what God wants for my life and that all that me and her have been through in the last year and our last 2 engagements has been a test to prepare us for this.
Now like I said. I know I still have a lot to learn. You know........ Its funny. I have always said that when I came to this bridge in my life. I would be ready. But now, (smurks and thinks to myslef) Am I really ready? That is all I can keep asking myself. There is so much ahead of me now that I have no clue what around the next bin, you know what I mean. I have also decided already that I am more then willing to make what ever sacrifices I need to for this child and my ex fiance. Even that means walking away from a lot of friends. Because I will be honest. I still run with some rough crowds. But I am willing to walk away from those friends to ensure that I wouldn't get on trouble. and I mean hell, I barely drink as it is. I usually have the occasional beer and that's it. I don't drive if I do have a beer or two with the guys. So that is a good thing.
Here is another obstacle for me and the mother of my child. We currently live almost 1,000 miles away from each other. Now I should probably explain this one. We were together a year ago and we split up. Now she went through a massive tornado and lost everything so she went on the road with her mom because her mom drives a semi. Last month, she was living with me. But my cousin's hated her and made life a living hell while they were visiting. It got so bad that her and I were run outta our own home and there was nothing that we could do about it because its my ants house.
I find that pretty messed up myself. That nothing was done or said by some one with more authority then me.
But I am currently planning on moving to where she is. There is no doubt on that one. I have to be where they are, and its where I want to be. I have been sending the mother baby stuff for the last 2 weeks because that is the most I can do for now while I am where I am .
Now I have been looking for a job where she lives and its hard to find one when you cant personally walk in there and talk tp them. But I am trying. I have also been looking a a place to live there and well as different kinds of insurance. Is there anything else I should be looking at?
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