Five years ago, deep in Trenvar’s Forest, bordering the Mountains of Dawn . . .
The air was crisp and sharp, as if laced with alpine snow as it flowed down from the mountain peaks and through the dense maze of conifer and aspen trees; ripening leaves of gold and scarlet, and the slender tendrils of sage swayed in a choreographed wave of motion. The sweet scent of earth and sap, tinged with honey, permeated the air with the whisperings of peace as the sturdy boughs sighed. Even in the woodland clearings, the sun, try as it might, could not win out against the cold breeze.
Kryos shivered as he felt the wind trace his face and skin and play with his white clothing as he sat, cross-legged, in the cool grass. His ebon hair danced with dark and vibrant indigoes flashing with the light, framing his slender face. His shoulders, built from training, but still lean with youth, were relaxed. His chest moved slowly with his breathing, calm and steady. His lips tightened minutely as he struggled to concentrate, to clear his mind. To Fargaze. To enter into the hidden realm of souls that existed within Althanas.
Minutes moved through the clearing with the breeze. All through it, his mentor sat across from him. She wore clothes that matched his, only hers had a personal flair of violet in the pattern. Long, silver hair cascaded down her shoulders and her face was calm, if not stern. Her deep red eyes watched Kryos’ every move, perceiving his struggle for success. They didn’t move, frozen in time as the sun began its decent toward the mountains. The shadows on Vinyara’s face changed, became more sharp than those upon Kryos, testifying of her age and wisdom.
The wind died, and the trees grew still, and the silence left in the wake of it was replaced by the whistling and calling of birds in the trees. Soon, the mountains and half the clearing were darkened in shadow. Vinyara closed her eyes in disappointment.
“Kryos,” she murmured. “Open your eyes.”
Sighing heavily, the weight of failure pressing down on his shoulders once again, did as instructed, squinting in the evening light. His normally bright crimson eyes were muted, as if mixed with a light shade of granite from his futile efforts. Avoiding eye contact with his soul trainer, he waited for a lecture. No doubt it would be one of perseverance and self-discipline as it had been in the past. He looked rather pitiful and childish, really; midnight hair obscured his downcast expression. But he couldn’t help it. Years of ridicule had all but destroyed his ego, and that in combination with the pressure of becoming the Raldian, the one person whose authority was held above others, was too much for him to handle at times. Because of that, he didn’t look up the first time Vinyara asked him too.
“Kryos, look at me!” Her voice, tainted with irritation, held that hidden warning he knew all too well. “I asked you what the problem was today.” He had no choice but to obey, or face the consequences. Their gazes met.
“I don’t know. I just, couldn’t do it.” The quiet words rang with a careless tone, a stream humming across rocks as it raced down a mountain.
“And why do you . . .”
“I don’t know!” Kryos almost shouted, letting all his frustration and grief rush out in a furious tide. “Nothing seems to work. I can’t find that ‘place of vision’ you keep telling me about, and relaxation doesn’t help either.” He folded his arms, glaring at nothing. “Maybe I’m not cut out to be the Raldian. Maybe I’m just a waste of time.”
A moment of quiet passed. Kryos took that as a confirmation - that his teacher did think that he was a waste of time. It hurt. It was as if someone had taken the small piece of faith he still had in himself and torn it asunder, with him still not completely knowing what that meant. He scrambled to collect the fragments, to piece back together the possible future which had stalked him for three years, driving him forward through persecution and doubt. It wasn’t enough, though. Against his own belief of uselessness, the determination, no, the desperation, was powerless. Shoulders sagging, his head dropped in defeat. It would be over. His time was up.
A slender hand stroked his cheek, fingers sliding under his chin and lifting his gaze. Her expression was tender, her eyes warm and soft. Vinyara kneeled closer to him, arm frozen as it linked them, student and teacher.
“Don’t give up,” she said. “Don’t ever give into those feelings. I know you can do it, and I’m here to help you, no matter how long that takes.” She smiled - the one that could chase the clouds away on a stormy day - and the sight of it brought a flicker of trust to his heart. “Will you do that, Kryos?”
There wasn’t anything he could say besides, “Yes, I will,” after something like that. A little bit of courage had been restored unto him, and he would go on till he finally won out against the darkness. Or until it consumed him.
“Get some rest, then. I’ll expect you here at midmorning tomorrow. And come prepared to duel.” Withdrawing her hand, the elder dwiilar stood and adjusted her clothing, flicking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. Nodding once to Kryos, she turned and walked away, back toward the city.
He took a deep breath as she disappeared into the trees and rolled onto his back. The fragrant grass pressed into his arms and neck, soft pinpricks along his skin. The pressure gone from his legs, he straightened them, extending the stiff muscles with a groan. Above, clouds began to form, painted golds and ambers and blues and grays by the retreating sun. As he watched, the troubles and worries melted away to make room for the present. This was something Kryos enjoyed beyond end - watching the sky, with no cares of the world. In the few seconds of silence, he felt content.
Still, the heavens grew darker by the minute, so he needed to be heading back. He gracefully rose to his feet, taking up his sheath and blade as he did, and walked swiftly along the path Vinyara had taken. Open space changed to wooded paths; the soft flattening of lush grass to the snapping of dead sticks and dried leaves. The sound reminded him of rough parchment. All around him, the birds that were still living the northern region of Alerar at this late time of the year, settled in, preparing for slumber. He could almost feel the wood as he passed through it - the stillness that settled. As if the land were holding its breath for the sunset as it neared the hidden horizon.
Still, Kryos made it back to the city before the sun was finally laid to rest. The elegant houses and shops of Evalintal glowed in the last rays of sunlight, creating a relaxed atmosphere. Thin spirals of blue and green trim boarded white, and light the color of silk honey poured from the windows in strips. The trees and radiant leaves, at least the ones that still clung to their branches, anyway, framed each dwelling in perfect harmony with the season’s splendor. Between the buildings and trees, pathways and benches, people moved about - some of whom he recognized, while others he still did not know - each finishing their last chores for the day or just emerging from their duties, eager for the night’s potential. Already, along the pathways, boys and girls around his own age raced from lamp to lamp, carrying a flame atop a long pole. As they arrived at each new lantern, they reached upward and lit each beacon as quickly and precisely as they could. It was well known that the job of illuminating the city was in fact a fierce competition among the workers. Hearing footsteps approaching from his rear, he glanced over his shoulder before moving out of the way. A boy carrying a lighting pole raced by, eyes fixed on his goal.
Kryos smiled. Such was life in Evalintal, the native home of the Dwiilar. Each day was filled with peace and growth through the trials of life. Each morning they arose to the same city, the same people. Each night they remembered the new experiences, the new people they met, the strength they had gained. Their solitude reinforced the bonds that held them together, that protected them from other, and perhaps more violent, races. Most of the outside world didn’t even know their kind existed, hidden as they were in the depths of the forest and along the base of the treacherous mountains, secluded and hidden from the global happenings. But it wasn’t as if they cared. His people preferred to remain secret, drifting in the myths and rumors of Humans and Elves and Dwarves and Dark Elves as a kindred race who held power over the souls of Althanas. So it had been since the dawn of their race, and so it would continue to be. They would watch from their sanctuary, waiting until the time came that they should go forth and play in the shadows of history - continually present but never seen. But until then, life would go on in Evalintal. And for most of the Dwiilar, they were happy.
A cry broke his reverie. “Kryos!”
Turning, he saw a young man jog toward him, face alight in the dependable smile that Lorin always wore. His brown hair was disheveled, as usual, and his eyes sparkled. The youth grinned as he fell into step besides Kryos.
“Hey, what’cha been up to today?” He asked, voice at the edge of humor and moroseness. “Learning how to become a great warrior?”
The future Raldian glared at his friend. “Shut up, Lorin.” He almost growled the words, irritated as he was at his recent failure.
“No, no, I’m serious,” Lorin defended, hands raise to his shoulders. “How did training go today?”
Kryos didn’t respond at first. He didn’t like telling others of the sacrifice his teacher was making to help him. But Lorin was one of his friends. He should keep him updated. Besides, saying nothing could turn out to be worse for him later on.
“Still no progress.” He shook his head in defeat. “I just can’t figure it out. I knew that my Gazes would be harder activate, as my combination is the rarest, but still. Even you can use yours, and we share one of our Gazes.” He let the words fill the silence before them, spending a moment to become absorbed in self-pity.
“Yeah. That’s terrible. But,” Lorin’s voice began to fill with that happy-go-lucky tone again. “Just think how completely amazing you’ll be once you get it down. I mean, you being the talented person you are, you’ll have no competition.” He shook his head up and down, confirming to himself what he spoke. “You still are the best swordsman of our age.” His sides shook as he doubled over in a bout of laugher, the pleasant tones ringing throughout the plaza they had entered and earning the couple of stares from bystanders. “Yeah, you’ll get it down in no time. I know you will.”
“Does anything ever get you down, Lorin?” he teased, elbowing him in the ribs to get him to shut up.
“Maybe a bruised rib,” Lorin pouted as he stubbled away with the blow. “You’re mean sometimes. You know that?”
Kryos laughed, really laughed when he saw his face, an attempt between sulking and anger. But as expected, Lorin’s expression broke into his usual smile now that he had gotten his friend to laugh. He adding a few chuckles of his own.
Lorin was a great friend, and Kryos knew that. Sometimes his unnaturally happy attitude that could withstand the most solemn news did get annoying, but Kryos supposed that it was precisely this outlook on life that really made Lorin fun to be around and really defined him as his own person. Sure, there were always the suck-ups to the teachers, the group of the popular, incompetent crowd, and the class clowns. But Lorin had a personality that was all his own. Kryos liked that. Most of the time, anyway.
Their humor died quickly, however. The sun had just vanished under the horizon, and now, as their power waned and changed, the air changed. Kryos looked into Lorin’s eyes, and saw the fated gray hue smother the blue, and Kryos knew his own were in a similar condition. No Dwiilar could escape the effects of the Transient State. Even a race with such foreboding power as theirs had restraints.
“So, any plans tonight, Kryos? A date, maybe?” Lorin prompted.
Kryos scoffed. “Now you’re just being ridiculous. Besides, if Vinyara finds out I’m up too late for such a silly reason, I’d never hear the end of it.”
“So, you’re just going to stay at your place and be boring, huh? You wouldn’t want to, oh, Fargaze, or anything like that?” As he spoke, he wandered a little ahead of Kryos and clasped his hand behind his back. Taunting him.
“I already told you . . .”
“Wait, Kryos, hear me out,” Lorin rushed, spinning around to face him. “I know what you think. But I heard some interesting news today.” He snuck closer and talked quietly into his ear. “I heard that some advanced students are going up to Darken’s Cave later tonight. So I talked to some friends, to see if they wanted to come check it out, you know? Maybe learn a trick or two?” He shook his head, backing away a little bit from Kryos. “Apparently, they all have plans tonight and can’t go. So, it was just going to be me, until I saw you. Come on!” he urged, eyes begging and betraying his hope for excitement. “Come with me. Maybe something you see can help you learn to Fargaze! Then you can be rid of all those snide comments from the kids.
Kryos couldn’t deny it. The prospect of Fargazing now, as opposed to later, was very tempting. He took a second to weigh the benefits and gains.
“When were you planning on going?” he asked.
“I’m was going to leave in an hour. You want to meet me up there?”
Kryos nodded “That sounds fine. But I still don’t think anything will change, just so you know.”
“Yeah, yeah, I got you already,” Lorin replied, brushing him off and rolling his eyes. “Well, I have to pick something up real fast, so I’ll see you up there.” He took off at a jog, pausing to look back at a corner of a street. He waved, smiling brightly. His eyes reflected the joy and life within, now restored to the pure, metallic silver that mirrored Kryos’ own. He nodded in reply, and his exuberant friend shot down the street and out of sight.
So he had one hour before he left for one of the cave systems that was home to the Twilight Mountains. He didn’t really know what to do, as he had planned on just going home, perhaps write an entry in his newly acquired journal, and then turn in. Days where he fought against Vinyara guaranteed that he would be exhausted afterwards. He didn’t look forward to it in the least.
I guess I’ll just enjoy the night while I wait, he thought. Watching others had always been one of his favorite activities, especially at night. Not to mention that if he was perceptive, a single night could be more educational than an entire day with Vinyara. Not that they ever discussed the night life of Evalintal, or the romance that could be more easily found in the safety of darkness. Their relationship was strictly teacher and student. Perhaps with time, they could become friends. But not now.
Wandering down a well-known walkway, stones hard and bright under the work of the lamp workers. He saw an unoccupied, wooden bench near the outside of the library. The massive walls rose up and darkened windows stood out against the illuminated white. Rows of trees raced along them, and it was between these that the bench sat. He approached and sat down, letting his right arm rest on the back of the bench, while the other lay on the black metal that served as armrest. His pose spoke of elegance, beauty in a moment of leisure. He watched the square before him, the people moving about, couples holding hands. He watched his friends, his elders, and his rivals. His black hair cast shadows on his face, covering his watching eyes. The eyes that shone silver. The tears of the moon.