~ A Poem ~

I feel the anger again
Poisonous words spew from my mouth
This is where the pain churned red
All the awful things I can't take back now

What do you get when you mix beating rage
With twisted, shy shame?
One moment, I'm fuming from all the hate
The other, I'm drowning in the thick, heated guilty waves

Help me! I'm trying so hard
I'm trying so hard to bury my dark
Cause I know, inside, my revenge fantasies
Could one thread snap and I become warped?
All I see is cruel ice in the crevices of memory
And I'm reminded why I never carry out those sick fantasies

I'm torn
Can't be a monster like her
I need to prove them wrong, but this thorn!
How long before I finally give into my anger?

I have to win...