I was vagually aware of the gentle minstrations against my head. They relaxed me. I wasn't sure the last time I felt this relaxed... it was probably the time I had taken part of Venex's soul and had no longer felt completely cold and empty. There were still large parts of me missng. Hell...what was inside me...wasn't me at all. I don't think I'd ever have a real soul to call my own.

"Nevin..." I mumbled his name as he glanced away from me. I repeated as I lifted a hand up to his chest, pressing firmly against it. "Hey... Nevin...."

It.... concerned me. Sure this was nice, it was more than nice. It was wonderful. It was warm and enticing and I didn't want to leave this spot, planted firmly in his lap. It was hard for me to meet people that could tolerate me. People like Venex, who did, who was wild and carefree as I was. He was so wild that sometimes even I could not keep up. He was a man without a care in the world, so much so - that he didn't give a damn when he gave up half his soul to me. (I was going to return it!) His issue was... that he couldn't stay serious. I mean.. I wasn't very serious either, but he didn't believe me or the things I said and that sometimes hurt...

Then there was Taka, who ever since he was in that scary place - was never the same.

Now - there was Nevin. Nevin was nice to be around but just how long was I allowed to be here? How long could I possibly continue this...this....what even was this? I don't know... but i didn't want it to end.

He still wasn't lookng at me. I cleared my throat and spoke, voice quiet and small. "Nevin...Eteri no have soul, just nothing but is ok if able to stay with still?"

"Stay still as long as you want to, Eteri. I won't make you go."

My hand clenched into a fist. He wasn't understanding...hell I don't even think I was understanding. "No!" I snapped. "Is stay?" Just what the hell was I trying to say?

"Y-you can do blood thing if want." I muttered, to change the subject. That sounded better. That was something, that was something based on something. Not nothing based off of nothing.